Step6-Am I really ready?

The statement "we were entirely ready to have this power/God remove all these defects of character"
-which ones?
-when will I know?
-what is yet to be uncovered?
HOW DO I PREPARE?

Well, I can only use me as an example and my "thorn in the flesh" so to speak, or the consistent defect that seems to hang with me through all step work thus far, is depression (clinical). I will relate how I deal with it as I take this step6. This condition at worse can be emotionally/physically and mentally paralyzing and at the other end of the spectrum, plain old uncomfortable with stinking thinking trying to get the upper hand to begin the spiral.
-These were the sequence of events as they played out a few days back. Now don't forget the drawback here-that the focus being Step6 this month lends itself to a nearness to our defects of character. Could this be my time, could this defect be going away this time to NOT RETURN. Stop there Scott! Where is your focus? OK prayer time, let's stop the downward spiral before it gets started! Prayer "What should I do?" Instant thought "Be" but with action!" Only action so far has been the praying. Now a call comes in, I have a chore. Great-purpose, something that requires action! Let's move, but gently with easy focus-only this chore. Bud (pet dog) tags along as he will need a walk before I can complete the chore and return. Oh a beautiful park just at the right time and I can do the rest of my spiritual work in God's garden. Scents, bird-song, new growth and water and so much wet green. I can experience the symphony of life here and now even in the midst of a down cycle. A glimpse of readiness, Scott may be ready for change. Same day a little later at an eastern type workout, I am confronted with my own anger (good anger) brought on when others tried to wrestle control of my emotions through coercion to commit and take part without allowing me time for due diligence. I stood firm and said "NO". Another gift, a glimpse of readiness-I was functional and decisive even in the midst of depression. Some more prayer as the day moves along-answer without being able to complete my prayer (even mentally) is "Share your Burden Scott, not something that may interest someone" another thought instantly"GO eat Scott!" and that is what I did.

So the point of all this-This is a spiritual program therefore I am praying my way through step 6 as I take it bit by bit. I have learned through this exercise of obedience (following what is obviously answers to prayer, as they often preceed the prayer to my God and Who else could pull that kind of thing off?) that I can function in depression although I do not like nor want to have to do so! Now as far as I am concerened I have done my part and will accept the result (depression goes or depression stays) as God's answer for me today!

The day in question above as I reflect was painful but very rewarding!! Program was in force and worked its magic!

The step whatever one it is at the time is used by God to mold me as planned (I believe this almighty God always knew every piece of the whole journey; how else could I believe that my God is ALL-powerful, ALmighty, ALL-knowing etc if anything could be unknown?). If I work it as best I can, the journey seems right and that is probably the "reasonably happy in this life" that the second part of the well-known serenity prayer talks about. This work demonstrates that for me the path is correct and the 12 steps are integral to my life