As I recently took step5 I wondered what new findings would appear in times to come. I mentioned in another sharing that a good prayer for me was along the line "please search me and reveal to me anything I am blinded to or in denial of!"
When I think of the story of the prodigal who saw the error in his ways and the simple fact that he like everyone else falls short and needs help to recover. The brother on the other hand could only see his own goodness and his brother's shortcomings. This was a great reminder for me to focus on me and not you in order to see the fullness of me, the good, the bad and the ugly, undiluted by others' lives and their inventories.
This is one of the 12 step's major gifts to me-to see things in myself that I have seen before and not really seen to the point of action. Now is the time sort of thing! With clear definition I see something in me and decide with full intention to give it the awareness it deserves. This is why I have chosen and hope to always stick to a life of recovery (growth); the unveiling never ends and the excitement attached to seeing myself differently is powerful!!
Another neat thing this week. Because step5 is somewhat the epitome of sharing, I end up doing a lot of it everywhere I go and the rough spots are weakened as they dilute sharing after sharing after sharing.............
A close friend asked "are you holding onto something you do not want?" Sounds simple but the answer is YES I AM. The point-it took that exchange and love of a friend, enough love to challenge the likes of me! Now I can use the slogan "let go and let God" with specific intention. Awareness is freedom!
There is magic in the steps, do I take them or read about them?
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