Step 6 preparation

Have not focused too heavily of late as I think about what God may decide is removable in me (my wrongs). Step 6 is about readiness therefore action is suggested. By this I mean when I have discovered something through the inventory process that is a defect, have I had a look at my part in the solution, have I done everything I could to repair this problem?

My biggest single defect for years has been depression and after many years of this struggle, there is not much else in life that I would rather drop than this robber of life. Am I ready to be without it, or could it be something God leaves me with so that I can share the struggles and the hope and the coping with others. I think of alcoholism sometimes and liken this situation to the alcoholic who is able to stop the drinking but cannot be rid of the powerful desire and its side effects (energy loss, motivation struggles, focus etc)?

I was in an institution last night (a jail where I do 12 step meetings) and because depression has been my burden of late, I shared it it when it was my turn. I believe that changed the course of thought totally and pretty much everyone identified. We wonder then in this setting, just how much of life's happenings are attributable to this dilemma of feelings that people will do almost anything to escape from (addiction, control, codependency loom). So once again the sharing at 12 step meetings has brought the feeling of fruitfulness to my life even in the midst of and maybe especially as a result of depression (my current dilemma). I went home encouraged and PURPOSEFUL.
We all want positive answers to those two questions "WHO and WHY am I?" This form of service, an integral part of my recovery, is a huge step in the right direction. For me this type of spiritual reward makes it all worth while no matter what the cost!!

Another word about Step 5 before I forget. Scott's thought only here (never advice). When I choose a person to confess to, I want to know that person will pray for me. If I believe this is a spiritual program, then for me this is of utmost importance!!