My inventory brought to light the usual discomfort with things in my life that at present are not going my way. The underlying feeling though, when I trace it down to its root is usually the same old SHAME (at a deep level I don't feel good about who I think Iam). My awareness of the fact today that these feelings are not fact and they do not mean that I am worth less than anyone, allows this uncomforable feeling to pass reasonably quickly and I can move in the direction I was heading once again. I am, after all, a perfectly created being with a perfect path and destiny. To deny or accept anything less is an insult to my creator (God). The feeling hurts but I will not give it anymore power. I hereby give it to God, ponder it with me and SHARE it with you.
Revealed to me through others sharing at 715 club this AM:The shame can spill into my program when I confess/share something as above and then find that I am still stuck with the defect. I must be very careful not to accept the feeling/lie that God did not find me worthy of removing this problem-I can't even succeed at this 12 step thing no matter how hard I work.
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