Like journalling I feel blogging my step work soothes in rougher times.
Always amazed at how I can be triggered by close people (usually family members who are hurting) to dive from near mountain top moments to sinking despair. Working 9 and taking my own recent sharings to task (I have been saying how I believe amends unattended or put off, deny me of healing and growth and how any emotional moment likely requires that an amend of some sort be made that progress not be once again denied).
Due to my trying to fit too many tasks into a day I ended up robbing myself and 2 of my dearest relationships of the potential joy available when one lives and acts in the moment and does not try to simply do his way to fulfillment (busyism the destroyer of inner peace and joy). Interestingly I am likely the only one suffering as a result of this. However I spiraled downward as a result and now, half day later I am pulling out by sharing my sentiments with those concerned and amending my behaviour through awareness and action. A different kind of amend brought on in a different way, yet, extremely powerful in my walk right now. My point, I was stuck until I could look at, become aware, accept and discuss a seemingly innocent happening that left alone could in my case have given depression yet one more victory. Thinking it out and writing prayerfully has brought my freedom back-Sharing My Burden (even with a keyboard on a blog) and taking the STEP is the answer for me once again! It works if I work it!!
Who or what thoughts unattended to, are holding up the flow???
Thank You Lord for this hurt and the resulting solution to this event and future similar situations!
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